Thursday, October 15, 2009
i finally realized that i like to prove that im blur/dumb. i happily psycho-ed myself that today no pw so i din bring my comp today that contained the wr with our tchers comments. i noe rite, damn smart. hmm. realized that life in nj is abit sad. like even hc has like 2 days of sabbaticals but all we had was like sex ed and a tear-inducing boooring ballet. THAT, ladies and gentlemen, was ALL the post exam activity we had. plus inter-house games... so wth. haiz.
if it were only so, i might still be fine.. i mean wad can u expect frm a mugger/loser sch?
BUT, it is the daily pw that make me wanna scream. arghh
complaints aside, im super emo. cux i jux feel super dumb. what i have of my results suck. if that an indication of what i will be getting fr my promos, im screwed. like majorly.
although people would say that as long as u dont get retained or have to drop ur subj comb, its good enuf. i wouldnt argue bcuz i understand that diff ppl have diff expectations and if i cont harping on the topic it would make people whose results are worse emo/pissed. but i jux have higher expectations for myself. i promised myself aft commons that i would work harder to pull up those shitty grades so that i could take my h3. in the end, i left my maths almost untouched which means that my maths is pretty much gone. and my supposed best subj, bio was not done fantastically either. i know i wouldnt do veri badly but i might not do fatastically well as i had hoped either and that realli worries me bcus without my h3, chances of a scholarship are significantly diminished. my parents have made it veri clear that they dun have the means to support an overseas education, so without a scholarship, i can jux kiss that part of my dreams goodbye. which is freaking sad. i would say that i was quite confident for chem. but aft today, im no longer sure. if my promos are gone, so am i.
if it were only so, i might still be fine.. i mean wad can u expect frm a mugger/loser sch?
BUT, it is the daily pw that make me wanna scream. arghh
complaints aside, im super emo. cux i jux feel super dumb. what i have of my results suck. if that an indication of what i will be getting fr my promos, im screwed. like majorly.
although people would say that as long as u dont get retained or have to drop ur subj comb, its good enuf. i wouldnt argue bcuz i understand that diff ppl have diff expectations and if i cont harping on the topic it would make people whose results are worse emo/pissed. but i jux have higher expectations for myself. i promised myself aft commons that i would work harder to pull up those shitty grades so that i could take my h3. in the end, i left my maths almost untouched which means that my maths is pretty much gone. and my supposed best subj, bio was not done fantastically either. i know i wouldnt do veri badly but i might not do fatastically well as i had hoped either and that realli worries me bcus without my h3, chances of a scholarship are significantly diminished. my parents have made it veri clear that they dun have the means to support an overseas education, so without a scholarship, i can jux kiss that part of my dreams goodbye. which is freaking sad. i would say that i was quite confident for chem. but aft today, im no longer sure. if my promos are gone, so am i.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
